Summer camp is right around the corner, so these weeks are crunch time. We're finally getting a good sense of how many campers there will be, which in turn, dictates how many people will be on staff. This time of year makes me feel a bit like I can't breathe. There are so many details to tend to and last-minute problems to take care of that it is hard to keep up. Sometimes in our hurry to get things done we blow through things too quickly. That's what happened today. There was a mis-communication, and, unfortunately, someone was hurt in the process. Now I'm sitting here wading through the regrets of how things should have been handled differently.
It's so true what they say about hindsight being 20/20.
Today I need grace. Grace from others and grace for myself. It seems impossible to not dwell on the "we should haves." I want to cry. I care deeply about my life's work. When you care deeply, making a mistake is humiliating. It is something bitter to swallow....But I can also see now what needs to change; how things can be improved. I am like a tree who has been pruned. It is sad that growth often comes from painful situations.
There are few things I dislike more in this world than causing people unintentional pain or disappointing them. The question is, what have I learned from the situation and how will I change it next time?
